Long time no talk, just in the blogging kinda mood.

So...
Long time no talk.
Sorry about that.
But im making a promise to myself to come here and release and write all frustrations out. This is the only place where i can be judegement free, drama free, just free.


So James has be deployed for almost 5 months now. They say deployments will make or break a marriage, and well ours is on the verge of being broken. I dont know what i would do if we where apart. i would be so lost. He is my whole world. and sometimes i dont show people how much i love them. ive had a really hard past, and i take alot of anger out of people. and i really dont mean too. Ive taken alot of anger out on James and he does not deserve that at all, he was never the one who hurt me. I mean we all have our problems, but thats just not fair. Ive said im sorry countless times and i just dont think he really forgives me inside. :( Im hoping to get into counseling when he comes home and hopefully we can piece this marriage back together and move on. The bible says Love does not keep record of one another past, but how can you not do that? if your spouse cheated on you, how can you not ever think that he wont do it again? i understand forgive, but you cant forget, so how is it we cannot keep a record in the back of out mind? Im trying to live my life, by this verse in the bible:


 If I speak in the tongues[a] of men or of angels, but do not have love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. 2 If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. 3 If I give all I possess to the poor and give over my body to hardship that I may boast,[b] but do not have love, I gain nothing.

4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

8 Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 9 For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10 but when completeness comes, what is in part disappears. 11 When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put the ways of childhood behind me. 12 For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

13 And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love

This verse means more to me than anything ive ever read in my life. If i could get it all tattooed on me i would, but thats alot of writing. lol.

Also i dont understand, when people get upset with me when i defend myself, and they end up saying im causing drama? well how is that? i cant defend myself? When someone is trying to come between me and my husband, i should just sit there and not say anything? WRONG. but then again i dont want to cause anymore problems and set myself back from the progress ive already made in my marriage. So maybe instead of writing things on Facebook, i will come here and write it all out. because this is MY blog, if you dont like it dont read it, i wish i could use that on facebook but its kinda hard. But back to what i was saying, why is it that when you speak up for yourself people end up saying your a drama queen, and if you dont defend yourself they say you a pussy and let people walk all over you? so where is the happy medium? and then there is people who say just be yourself... well that doesnt work. because people will judge you no matter what you do. nothing makes anyone happy, and its very frustrating. Im realizing more and more that instead of the friends that call themselves friends i find them turning their back on me latley. and that sucks, because this is the time in life when i need people in my life the most. Ive done some not so nice things and publicly said things about my husband on fb that i shouldnt have, and untimely people took his side, well no one sees what he says to me, and he has said some mean thing too, but in the end no one should be on anyone's side. at all, it just ends up hurting people. So at the end of the day, im either a bitch, a  drama queen, a pussy or im having a "pitty party" so there is no happy medium. never. and what i dont get, is if you hate it so much, WHY are you still on my facebook anyway? is it just to spy on me? have something to do? i dont know. So while im here i will write how i really feel about women who try to get with married men.

To the homewreaker it may concern-

I understand you like to be a whore. and thats fine and dandy, but dont be a slutty suzie around MY husband. Because it wont end up good for you. im very PROUD of my husband. you run your mouth about me, but at the end of the day im not the one spreading my legs to everyone in the county. im at home with my kids, not CHEATING on numerous people that you have. You miss, have some serious issues and want to make me look like the crazy one? your nuts. your the one talking to a married man and sending him pictures and skyping with him. i understand it takes 2 to cheat, but ill start with you. And just so you know he is in the army and can get in trouble for talking to you, so if you want to keep him out of trouble i would highly suggest to knock your shit off. And this is me being nice. So as a warning, stop trying to break a marriage. cause at the end of the day, how does that make you look? like a whore. and your track record isnt very good, so i dont know why anyone would ever trust you anyway. your just a piece of ass. thats it. How would you feel if you where in my shoes? probably feeling like taking a base ball bat to my face huh? yeah... pretty much. So instead of taking the time out of your day to talk shit about me and try to come in and scoop my husband away, why dont you go do something with your life. stay out of mine. cause honestly my life isnt that interesting. Does my husband even know how many men your sleeping with? because its shameful. just like you. a shameful person. Ive done my share of bad things in my life, but ive repented MY sins, and only god can judge me. Im making things right to those i have done wrong too. also refering back to the bible, you cant keep records on people. LEARN THAT. you dont even know me, but yet you still find things to talk about. you get you info from one of thee BIGGEST liars in that county. at the end of the day it makes me laugh the things people can come up with, im glad someone has time to do things like that! man i wish i had that much free time. I understand you think my husband is amazing, why the hell do you think i married the man, because he is amazing, if i could clone him for you i would, but i cant. if you stopped being such a slut maybe you would find a guy like MY husband, and i said guy like him, not HIM. He is the one man that means the most to me, why would you try to take that away from me, and my kids, my daughter calls him daddy, and you dont think that would wreak her whole world if he was out of her life for good? yeah maybe you should start thinking about the impact your making on other people and not jut yourself. James saved me, he came into my life at just the right time, i was on a downward spirl in life, he is my saving grace. so shame on you. again it takes 2 to cheat, but be the bigger person and have respect for a MARRIAGE and vows and not be "that girl" So on an ending note, im saying nicely back the fuck off. :)

MRS. PEARSON 

Im really bad at this. March 24th

Ok so im really bad at this blogging thing. i told my self when i started my blog that i would stick to it and try to update it once or twice a week. Yeah... you can see that didnt happen.

Madison is in her crib right now trying to keep herself awake but saying "ooooooo" over and over again. sorry i had to share that.

So its been a pretty crazy month, i thought after the first of the year things where going to settle down. NOT. We got the news about 4 weeks ago, James is going to deploy in June. This was such a surprise for us, because the unit he is in, hasent deployed in years. But its something we have to face, so there is not need to go into it acting crazy. We also got on post housing and should be moving in aug-sep. Im so excited to have our house but at the same time, our house is not a home without my husband. But i did find this awesome thing on post, they are going to sponser my mom to live with me on post for the year that he is gone. So thats amazing. God really answered our prayers there.

March 6th was my birthday! YAY for getting old. I turned 24 this year. UGH. that may not be old, but i feel old. ive been married, divorced and have 2 kids. and married again lol. thats alot to happen in 5 years. But my life couldnt be better so i have no regrets. :)

So i think thats the update for the month. i need to get ready for the day. I keep telling myself that im going to vac my car and wash it, but i havent. and i need to. lol. So i hope everyone is having a good week!


Mrs. P

Long Time No Write.

Hello!
So its been awhile. There has been so much going on, i thought i would finally take a minute and write everything down.

1st off. Daddy is being deployed as of May. :( this really is my first go around and well.. im scared. But im surrounded in the most loving family and friends. With them i can do anything!

2nd. We are moving. YAY. bad part... we are moving after daddy is gone. :( but we are getting brand new housing on post and i couldnt be happier. So we have a nice 6-9 month wait list, but we can save up the BAH.

3rd Miss Lou is turning 2!!!! June 30th is her day! Im sad because she is my last baby, she is my princess and time is flying by too fast. And the fact that James is leaving before hand is just sad. So like the spoiled girl she is.. she is getting 2 partys for a 2 year old lol.

Jayden left yesterday to go visit his daddy in Colorado. He is on block leave from over seas right now. He was so excited! And im excited for him. But there is nothing like, forgetting the stroller, and carrying a suit case, a car seat, a baby and holding on to a toddler walking all trough out the airport... what a work out!

Also ive decided while James is gone, im going to lose all my weight and mabye get some pin up pictures done. and whats better then buying a new wardrobe? doesnt get much better than that!

Oh yes! i almost forgot.... i FINALLY got my wedding ring.

Its amazing, and gorgeous. its everything ive ever dreamed about. Im not by any means trying to brag, but im excited that i did get a ring and i didnt have to buy it this time lol.

Well we had a crazy snow storm yesterday! Its all starting to melt today, so im kinda sad. I love driving in the snow, i just dont like driving with other people, because they all seem to freak out and drive all crazy.

I just cant belive this year my son with be 5. and my baby will be 2. and my angel baby would be 6 this year. wow.

                                         Me 7 months pregnant with Jayden.

                                          Lou on her first birthday. <3

                                          The hardest day of my life. Meeting and saying goodbye to my daughter Addison. 6 years ago in August. oh how i miss you everyday baby girl.



Ok im getting all teary eyed, i need to get going.

Have a fantastic weekend everyone.


Mrs. P.

Finally a breather. Jan 27th 2011

Im so tired and out of it this morning, that when i went to write the date i wrote 3011. ok wow.

So updates.

After 4 long days our car loan was approved and its ready for pick up! or so they say. This is my dream car, but i will NEVER ever buy a car from this dealer again, i probably wont even ever buy a car again, i'll send my husband and my brother. I will post pictures later, but shes hot stuff!

Now we have a long next few weeks ahead, trying to get everything situated with tricare and deers and getting my id is what seems to be something easy... but its not. and its annoying me to no end. There is just so much to do, and like no time to do it in. Next week is my last week of work ( the gates of heaven are opening) thank god. Next weekend we finally get to go get my wedding ring! YAY! and of course its superbowl weekend. but i think im gonna go up and spend some time with my friend Kathy who i havent seen in awhile lol.

Well i hope everyone enjoys their day! its almost the weekend!

Ugh. Jan 26th 2011

Ugh.
Thats pretty much summing up how i feel. The last few days have been nothing but stress. I decided yesterday, to quit my job and be stay at home mommy for awhile. My babies need me, and i need them. I just can go on being verbally abusised every single day i go to work, i wake up each morning dreading going to work. ( i work as a nurse for a child with disbilitys, and i watch over her brother who is 11 and has some serious undiginosed mental isssues) i would be ok if the parents took the time to get him some help, but they brush it off and dont want to give him the time of day. And in return he takes his anger out on me, ive never in my life been spoken too like this kids talks to me, its unreal. so im done.

On to bigger and better things in life. We looked at houses on post with my friend Becky, and we decided on the same neighborhood. its brand new housing, and im in love with it. we have a 6 month waiting list, but thats ok, it gives me time to gather things we need for our house. I will post pictures in about 7 months lol.

I just would love if the next 6 week days would just go by a little faster. im so worn out.

I think thats all for now. On with the rest of the stressful day. i hope i get some good news today... and if i do you know i will share lol.

Hope everyone is having a wonderful hump day!

Ta Ta!

Lazy Sunday. Jan 23rd 2011.

Well its Sunday already, where did the time go? I hate that weekends go by so fast. So Saturday was pretty fun, we went and filed our taxes, and we are very excited to finally get our wedding rings and a new tv! Friday night James was making nachos (one of his favorite foods) and im currently obsessed with hot cheetos and i decide it would be a great idea to make hot cheeto nachos, James was no impressed, but he hates hot cheetos, but i was in heaven. But they looked really weird lol, then my mom pointed out that they smel like stinky feet... and they really do!!!! i was like damn i dont know if i can eat these anymore lol.
So later that night we went over to our friend Becky and Trey's house, they have a little boy who is almost 3. So we took Jayden so the boys could run around and play. And miss Lou stayed home with my mom, because she wasent feeling that hot,

So today is Sunday and we are all just chilling out watching football. My mom made my favorite, jumbolia. yum yum. James is back to work tommrow and im off with my friend Becky to go look at base housing. We are pretty excited, we are trying to get on the same street as each other. Im currently on a hunt for a job for my friend Averee, her girlfirend Ashley work with my husband and we really want to move her up here, so im seaching all over for jobs for her.

My son looks so darn cute all cuddled up on the couch asleep. He has had such a long day. poor baby. James is just sitting here staring at the tv and checking his phone... he kinda looks confused lol.
Madison (miss lou) is also sleeping.

I feel like this month is have alot to do. Do you ever feel like you have so much to do, and not that much time to do it in? Well that where im at now. :(

Oh man i can hear my mom making banana pudding in the kitchen. Yes we are from the south if you havent caught on yet.
I think im going to go catch up on some random tv shows, as i blog you will learn my little quirks, FYI i collect tv shows on dvd.

My favorites:
Golden Girls
Friends.
Sex & the city
Grey's Anatomy.

Im convinced Golden Girls is the cure all to an depression. Ive gotten trough many heartbreaks & breakups with the Golden Girls. I even cried when Sophia died. And my heart will break IF Betty White ever dies, but im pretty sure she will live forever.

Anyway i hope everyone had a wonderful weekend. Back to the daily grind tommorow!!


Mrs. Pearson. <3

Our First Post! Jan. 21st 2011

Well here we are! I finally got around to making my blog. Thank you Jesus for giving me 15 minutes to start this and actually write something. Lets start with introductions.

Mrs. Pearson.

Im Chandra Pearson I'm 23 going on 24. I have 2 beautiful children, which you will meet a few lines later... haha.

Mr. Pearson.

Ok, so its me and Mr. Pearson. His name is James and he is my wonderful husband. He is active duty Army and we are stationed at Joint base lewis mccord.

We got married January 11th, 2011 ( yes im weird about dates, but now he has no excuse of forgetting our aniversary)

And Finally, Meet our babies.

Jayden Michael. He is the oldest, he is 4. he is a typical boy. loves his car and trucks and getting dirty. but underneath his boyness he is a huge softy.

And last but no least.....

Madison May. She is 19 months, she is the girlie girl who loves to work on cars and get dirty. she is the princess and she knows it. She most deff has secletive hearing, if she wants to do it, she will find a way to do it.

So, as far as today, James is returning from the field. He has been gone for 4 days. I got up this morning to go to work, got Jayden up to go to nana's and he said he wasent feeling good, and as soon as i said that he puked. YAY. So today has been pretty chill, although he still wants to run around like a mad man when hes sick. Now we are just waiting for Daddy to get home so we can eat some dinner. I hope everyone has a fun and safe weekend!

Mrs. Pearson.